Did You ever feel like ******??

I know everyone has that time in their life where they feel why do I ever bother or try.

Wether it's caused by love, school, money or social it happens to the best of us unfortanately but hey, if we can make it through that tough time, it only makes us stronger beings.

I watched koishite akuma episode two. Some japanese drama I said i didn't care too much for, that episode was surprisingly pretty good.
The message was effed up though. They talked about the difference between a human life >> shiseikan <<< and a vampire's life.

We strive to live our fullest even knowing that in the end we will die.

So true, we attempt to live all the life we can before we are more, and that's exactly how we should live.
Pushing limits, going beyond the boundaries, excelling, spreading our wings, living everyday like it was our last.

In the end what will you believe? What will be your mark on this earth? Make it big make it honorable.
Just live your life and hold your head up, things are crappy now but remember, there's a tomorrow so there for there can be a better day ^_^;

-Ren Montez <3 p="">

Lover I Don't Have to Love - Bright Eyes

This song is crazy, I love the melody. I would listen to this without the lyrics if I could. I normally listen to this song when I'm feeling down and I feel that love is too damn pointless.
(Pardon if you don't like my music reviews but they do relate to my life, since I have some opinion on it :] )

The lyrics are deep and whatever. >>>
Here are a few lyrics from the song that made me say wow:
I want a lover I don't have to love I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk, hey where's the kid with the chemicals....
I got a hundred and I can't seem to get far...

I got the money if you got the time he said it feels good and I'll give it a try ....
and my mind went dark...
I need some meaning I can memorize, The gotta have or seems to slip my mind...
You are such pretty words, but love's no story book, love's an excuse to get hurt and to hurt. Do you like to hurt? I do I do, then hurt me, then hurt me.

Well if I have any readers out there, I would love to hear your opinions every once in awhile ^^; (starting to feel as if I'm sounding desperate for a reply)

-Ren Montez <3

Coughing

For the past few days my friends have been able to keep me in good humor
As well as tears  and deep thought (deep serious conversation, you know like those adults like to do)


Sometimes I'm truly astonished by somethings.

My dreams are loco man. Friend turning into a wolf, I knew he was bad but not like that. His eyes going this way and that. Why are we at another dance? Why am I so caring? Buying him a Mango Carrot drink hah, I'm allergic. I'm somehow developing nectar for a person I would never be interested in.

Yet isn't that how it always starts?