Upsetting for a Japanese Learner

-____- <<<< That's my face for when I found out that Genki was updated!


I'm just relieved i didn't buy volume 2 D: I see the difference in the updates xD
So I've decided to put my studying on hiatus

The Japanese study that is, now I will work on my Chinese and Korean studies :P With probably a slight touch of indonesian XD
Yes yes, I'm still studying spanish o:
I have to do a major review though ~_~
That's what i'll be doing tonight making the time fly baby :]


wtf! Something just bit me on the back of my neck, so not sexy and it hurts a lot D;


That's all , I hope that so many of you japanese learners did not have to go through this and you were wise to just rent the book lol, well now you can buy it so pay up XD haha.

The flashcards/picture cards are not necessary and if ur a self taught learner you do not need to buy the workbook too. However if you're an OA (overachiever) like moi, GET IT. It's a fun book ^_^


GENKI I includes a Textbook and Workbook
GENKI II has been released but so far only jbox has it up on the net the other online sellers are still catching up
and then there's the Answer Key which includes the answers for Both the textbook and workbook of Volumes 1 & 2.

Textbook Most Common Price $58.90
Workboook Most Common Price $26.80
Answer Key Most Common Price $12.60

p.s. the cds are new included with the books, awesome right? so we save money now!

Douche Move: http://genki.japantimes.co.jp/

lol just add /index_en to the end of the url XD


-Ren Montez <3

Hiii

it's been a minute since I posted in this xD
watching a movie
been watching a lot of movies lately :]

Miguel - Girls Like You

FINALLY!
I was wondering for quiet some time now, hmm I wonder if Miguel is going to have a video for this one.

Months later my wish is finally granted :D

Sad part is the video does not relate at all to the song :/

but it's a good low budget video
still would of loved to have some real symbolics

I loved the heart shapped lolli 
now I  want one lol

I also love his new hairstyle. Very cute on Miguel, way better than the last one
Guess who the girl is in the video XD

-Ren Montez <3

I don't wanna :(

I just don't feel like it man, for some reason I just don't want to speak for a bit. I felt so right awhile ago now everything feels different. I feel I should jut rush now, just to escape.


Tell me how everything that felt so right, is now starting to feel so wrong...

Did you Feel that?

Haven't seen him in a minute yet he's been on my mind here and there. Good to see him, good to be around him, accidentally mistaken him for a womanizer.

I guess the reason why I first fell for him was because he was so simple and I was so complicated.

Saw the face of a person who once accused me and I was quick to show him the light, It doesn't hurt and I can laugh about it, haha because he's such a loser.


-Ren Montez <3

Special Poetry Insert

Godly
by Chris Kim

I could feel the light in him
As he passed me by
This man was some miraculous
Nothing as I had ever encountered before
My days were gloomed
Yet he cleared it up better than any glass cleaner
Gave me the motivation
The Inspiration
When I needed it the most
Selfishly I wanted to just keep his time
Yet I knew he was a busy man
On a mission
With a title unknown to me

Fear

I felt it in me, for real, the real thing. In the bottom of my heart and in the pit of my azul soul. I could feel it. It was truly scary and I don't know the exact reason why I felt this but it was there.

Ask and you will Receive

@ like 1.30am Azad htm on twitter. I was all whhuuuut o-O
 >_> still curious how he found that tweet lol
Maybe I should look up me on twitter ;D (that's something hard to find)

I was so excited o:

Sucks that I didn't know about him sooner, I would of so went to his show at Woodstock :(

Wonderful Sunday

Today was awesome, deepened my spirituality and treated myself .

Haven't had cereal in a long time finally had it

Then it was Milk Tea^^

Which reminded me I need to get back to working on my cookbook ;______;

Watched movies all day and learned a little bit about game design


Found out a little more about Azad Right, he's a really interesting dude :]

Spiderwebs - Azad Right

"I can't maintain a relationship, they remind me I don't relate to shit. I love you, I'm not in love with you, but I want you in my life, so that's an issue." - Azad Right

Indie artist from California, I must admit I can give serious props to him.

The video was simple and elegant, thank you Michael Bromberg (director) your vision was right.

This is really a song people need to listen to, really check out this kid.

Spiderwebs is about love, selfish, dreams, anger and life.

When you're trying to get somewhere in life and you include other people, they often try to bring you down.

He knows money isn't everything yet he just wasn't ready for love.

I can really relate to these lyrics yet I can sit here and just say damn...

His flow is nice and I always hope he stays this clean and truthful.

Reminded me of Lupe Fiasco and Cage.

Those are the type of artist I like.

Spiderwebs is a metaphor for .......

You should fill in the blank yourself

Don't forget to check him out!





Connect with Azad Right:

https://www.facebook.com/AzadRight
http://azadright.com/
http://twitter.com/#!/AzadRight


-Ren Montez <3

This 朝

I had a bad rest last night

tossed and turned
so cold, uncomfortable.

Feeling like crap, I worked out and felt good

did the workouts I wanted to do yesterday
my knee is now hurting so I have it elevated
that actually helps too.

my mum is such a downer
has already tried to ruin my day
i also have things to do
i didn't ask anyone to cook food for me

cuz often they don't feed me anyway
since they never bother to ask if i'm hungry
they just assume I don't want jack to eat :/

Life is screwed for me right now
I don't dig this boojé

Approaching me nasty ):<
I know I'm young but that doesn't mean anything.
I have a lot to deal with on my plate.

I need a job
And it's so hard to get one because I never got a job before, I only did volunteer work, I don't know how long I'll be in town and the economy is bad.

If I was younger it would be easy for me, makes me sad and then I wanna cry T_____T
¡Ren necesito dinero también!


I'm stressed out right now and working out and sleeping are the only two things keeping me going, oh my rfs too <3 ilyg
 

-Ren Montez <3

Edit: now she's mad at me u_u (that makes me feel better) lol

Crap

Some people just have those spirits always trying to bring you down.

Mum, Sibling, Father, Aunt, Cousin, Teacher, Stranger, Enemy or so called friend aka Frienemy.


When those moments occur just try to distance yourself from it.

Today I felt a lot of that bullshit.
I don't like to say bullcrap because it makes me think about crabs, Trey Songs used to have that . (see that's why I don't like to say it)



I did a 20 minute workout and I automatically felt better, someone said something rude to me on my way to do it, I didn't like that and sure I felt a little ugh you know what cuss cuss.

But I didn't go that far, I just ran as fast as I could (you know I don't run, I only skip, hop, jump and speed walk) so I could go workout and make myself feel better.

My knee clicked half way through the workout because I was still angry at the time, yet I pushed through the pain instead of giving up, I'm so glad I did too.

I wouldn't feel as happy as I do now, I'm kinda hungry as well at the moment yet that's only natural after burning off so many calories.

Came up with some new script ideas, I won't release the titles of those works until I'm at least half way done with them (Only God knows and only time shall tell)

In the latest I've been feeling a little more than your average shade a blue.

Another typical thing amongst our youth and females. (yes for once I will admit to being a woman) There's therapy, medication, weapons and death yet I choose to use none of them.

No need to poison myself, how can another crazy person tell me I'm crazy when they started it?

Sometimes in life they over exaggerate things.
Such a shame.

I'm going to do 3 more workouts then call it a day


Hey, nobody said it was a short road to recovery

-Ren Montez <3


Edit: Nevermind I'll have to finish those workouts when I get back, someone wants me to go out with them, so I'll unpin my hair to look some what suitable.

Relationship Killers: Sure is True - It killed a few of mine

Relationship Killers: Insecurity. Trust Issues. Facebook. Twitter. Assumptions

from Mr.Popular on twitter.

He was right about that , they all killed me relationship except for Twitter.

It wasn't even coming from my side. All him, accusing me, feeling insecure, not trusting me and all over my facebook like a damn stalker.

Now I had said what was up from the jump, yet I guess that just wasn't understood. (This is when I feel like abusing the usage of the N word though I only say it when I'm really upset at some dumbfuck. Yeah a man who I told to leave me alone but just wouldn't go away.)


Nothing pisses me off than when a person tries to flip crap as if I was the one who was crazy and imagining things, I remember shit to the tee and I'm not going to pretend I'm right all the fucking time. I know when I'm wrong.

I never really talked about the communication problem that bugged me so dearly. Nobody wants to be honest and I'm not going to sit back and be stupid for you. Yet I could learn to be stable about it, I rather not.

You want to make assumptions about me when all I did was tell the truth to you and all you ever did was make excuses then fine, Fuck you.

I don't accept lies, from the start one lie will never be forgiven, White or whatever the lie, it's unacceptable because if ur lying about the small shit, just what else would you lie about, i'm pretty sure some serious shit too.

If it was all good you wouldn't have to avoid telling the truth in the first place, you wouldn't have to avoid looking me in the eye, you wouldn't have to feel guilty in your damn subconscious!


No hearts or sig on this.


This probably concludes the rest of my bitter feelings, now I wish there were more days where, I could see a good side of males, yet those were rare to begin with. Such a Shame

sigh Just one of those

Today seemed really cruddy :/

Started with two nightmares, one of a person I had no interest in and had no interest in me but i messed with them anyway. The were all over me for once, freaked me out cuz in reality that's all i never WANTED or needed....

the next was an ex what the horror -shivers in fear-

guess my fears are different, i prefer the right guy at the right time (almost said tight time)

People have been really iffy lately, all making me want to raise my eyebrow like this o_Ô (international keyboard ftw)

THANK GOODNESS someone dropped something waking me up out of those awful nightmares, i ended up in the bathroom sick though...

i don't like when the past crosses my mind
today i'm finally going to workout

Today really had that crappy vibe , it was agreed upon with my friend, yep crap day o_o

On another note where the heck is Rae?
Where on earth is Rachel Cohnagan rachel cohanagan >.> missed spelled your names lol
(on purpose!)


-Ren Montez <3

Today was a good day :D

Today was partily cloudy with a bit of rain (has already started this out with a lie) lol

Ok xD so it rained heck of hard, drove mi papá al doctor. There I practiced in the parking lot, by myself (because I'm a big girl ;D ) K-turn, parking in a parking lot >_>
so many violators D: they do it just because they think nobody's watching.
One of them tried to hit me ¬¬

I was nervous about the road test, i kept effing up while backing up lol.
I'm pretty darn sure I scared everyone in the car xD
But the main problem is I needed to adjust my sheet back -_- but I was afraid because that dude was behind me, he was kinda cute , if I broke his nose he would of been cute >.>

He only spoke Spanish though (puff face)

Glad to have my old instructor back :D

Made a new friend she's nice.

I got rained on so hard D<
to the point my hair got messed up >.> from straight to whooshy D:

Finally get in the car
hell nervous
already doing bad things ;~; too hard with my seat, mirror , belt adjustments lol.

I thought I had fail o_o (always thinking negative)
I PASSED YO XD

I wanted to go dancing in the rain <3

Dude was working on a ponytail he had a long braid, oh m r when that boy's hair grows out o_o ¡aym! lol
Yeah ho yeah, it was just the hair >_> his hair texture was just like mine, he had the fluffy soft lol. I can see we both need moisture in our lives o:
I want that soft silk T_________T


I was working off of gatorade and water all día o.o
not a good diet XP

-Ren Montez <3

Did You ever feel like ******??

I know everyone has that time in their life where they feel why do I ever bother or try.

Wether it's caused by love, school, money or social it happens to the best of us unfortanately but hey, if we can make it through that tough time, it only makes us stronger beings.

I watched koishite akuma episode two. Some japanese drama I said i didn't care too much for, that episode was surprisingly pretty good.
The message was effed up though. They talked about the difference between a human life >> shiseikan <<< and a vampire's life.

We strive to live our fullest even knowing that in the end we will die.

So true, we attempt to live all the life we can before we are more, and that's exactly how we should live.
Pushing limits, going beyond the boundaries, excelling, spreading our wings, living everyday like it was our last.

In the end what will you believe? What will be your mark on this earth? Make it big make it honorable.
Just live your life and hold your head up, things are crappy now but remember, there's a tomorrow so there for there can be a better day ^_^;

-Ren Montez <3 p="">

Lover I Don't Have to Love - Bright Eyes

This song is crazy, I love the melody. I would listen to this without the lyrics if I could. I normally listen to this song when I'm feeling down and I feel that love is too damn pointless.
(Pardon if you don't like my music reviews but they do relate to my life, since I have some opinion on it :] )

The lyrics are deep and whatever. >>>
Here are a few lyrics from the song that made me say wow:
I want a lover I don't have to love I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk, hey where's the kid with the chemicals....
I got a hundred and I can't seem to get far...

I got the money if you got the time he said it feels good and I'll give it a try ....
and my mind went dark...
I need some meaning I can memorize, The gotta have or seems to slip my mind...
You are such pretty words, but love's no story book, love's an excuse to get hurt and to hurt. Do you like to hurt? I do I do, then hurt me, then hurt me.

Well if I have any readers out there, I would love to hear your opinions every once in awhile ^^; (starting to feel as if I'm sounding desperate for a reply)

-Ren Montez <3

I had a dream

._____.
okgetngiotgeoj

I had a dream about Marco.. I know i know I know, what am I doing thinking about him.
DONT WORRY IT WAS STRICTLY FRIENDLY
trust meh

BHJBHEL belhs Dx
(just licked some ice cream soup that's been sitting for more than 10 minutes)

So I'm at a house or something
few other amigos are there
and I was just wondering if I should start dropping by in this area again.
So I saw next to Marco on this very very lavish sofa (i'm not exacertating)
I'm not just sitting next to him, i'm sitting close, REAL close, to the point s, I might as well be joint to him by the darn hip.

He looks at me awkwardly putting down his controller (yep, he was all on dat derr xboxi)
I rest my head on his shoulder then tilt upwards him in a bit of a sigh. "Marco do you miss me?"
"Oh course I miss you." he turns a bit and hugs me (that man, still gives amazing hugs, I felt this one in my dreams too, that's the type of stuff to put a smile on my face ^^; -entering kekeke mode- ) "Oh good, I wanted to know" I hug hug back. Then .. "You know I own a club, then there's one where I go to work at" the dream ends briefly after this..

Marco has a girlfriend and in my dream I wasn't even thinking dirty, I just always wanted to work on building a friendship with Marco but never really bothered to hop on that, I think maybe the next time I see him idkwthti that I will try to ask him a little something somethin


- Ren Montez <3

O.O

there was this big icky thingy was on the cieling and now it went poof D8

-panics- xD



that's what ur supposed to do when things disappear when they're not supposed to lol


-awkwardness- .___.
>_> -runs around in circles-

Mike Posner - Cheated

It's a good song all in all, yet in away a typical person feels like yeah the next time that happens Imma cheat on that hoe.
Nah nah nauh.

That's something that shouldn't be done, but I can understand where Posner is coming from, knowing that the one you loved wasn't all there for you.

Trust me, most of us want to cheat when we find are skank is nasty. (I included)

Yet that will not solve the problem and will only add on to your bad karma, you always want to have more good karma than bad.

Yep I'm a Roman Catholic and it goes against my religion but I still believe in certain things and it's not as if I twist my religion for something bad.

Do yourself a favor, someone's cheating on you click your heels and end that s, if you see it something worth working on go for it.

If you're thinking about cheating on someone dump them. This saves them from more pain.

If you already did it, fess up, because that s fucks with someone's self esteem no lie (haha, see I censored the word shit but not fuck lol)

How it messes with that person head?
1. They think love doesn't exist anymore
2. They think you're a liar
3. They feel unbeautiful
4. They feel unlovable
5. They feel used
6. They feel disgusted
7. They feel hurt

Out of my experiences I never felt 3 since I already had self esteem issues , I always felt a certain way about my appearance and heck, piece of s dudes I've dealt with they never called me beautiful the whole damn time we dated so SAD FACe lol.


Now back to Mike Posner lol, Gone In September this goes perfect with the tweet I made today.

He's a good dude but after all that bs he turned lol, now I hope he goes back to the good guy.



Fix you ok?


-Ren Montez <3

lloll

dISTRACTED XD

I apologize

Lately I've been slacking once more with the doing, I've been on the say lately, which is really unlike me.

I will post it

For a Loss

I dealt with it, covered it and I'm ok with it.

Just waiting to call things off

De Nuevo: A trip to an old place

In the CL with a few people I knew

 ^^^(How Gei, anything that gives me that erm ugh hhh blehhh >_< meh feeling lol ) I don't like this picture, it's not flattering but I've been very harass on things involving me,anyway thanks Tom (Thomas) for taking it.

Today I dropped by my old stopping grounds
Checking in was a fail my phone glitched hardcore on me

I was sad facing about it -3-

No Jelani, No Tevin , No Mitch and No Glenn
-sigh-
but there was a dude I thought  was Glenn lol

First enterance was the library sighing and trying next stop was a wrap around to the den

which was empty.. so to the ARTS! building
West Min (Minsiter)

Saw Zumi she was working on a project it looked good so far, then I went back to the den
Finally some peoples yah!

Spent a lot of time roaming around with Michael

Highlight: Polo
Loved his hair , felt like a kid in a candy store *-*
IT WAS SPIKY D;
then it was alll zig zaggy and
IT WAS JUST TOTAL BADASS D<
He looked like one of them thai warriors or something xD

Played Sonic II <3
Freakin Casion level pissed me off
I played pool twice lost the first time
then one the second time

then again I played another time >_>

Nut he doesn't like me so I forgot cuz I was too busy laughing about the reason why he don't like me xD

I reestablished some connections :] networking yo
Felt good doing that now all I gotta do is get my work done

Didn't see Adam again ): It was weird in away since he said he would be back in west min but when i went back i didn't see him o-O

I tried going again but still didn't T-T

Saw Tink (Tinkerbell lol) Nails and Shatiek(ei)

Nails's new skateboard is so awesome it has a Raq on it with the words Hubba underneath, then on the under belly there's a rainbow swirling unicorn

Shateik gave me a magnetic clip :3 he won in the daily game of thursday.
We laughed about smokes Devion (he's a director who is quite amazing, if you need something done he will get it done for you) and weed but there was no weed lol

Me: Are you smoking without me?
Nails: Yes, I am, this is the best weed in your life that you will neva get.
Funny because in the end he said these cigarettes sucked and I pretty much thought they did
They looked flimsy.

Back to Devion when they told me he can get anything done for me I thought uhhh.... o_O ¿Asesino? we laughed some more

Devion - But it depends on how much I like you.

Then I thought to myself >_> well I'm a likeable person so that should be easy, later we just discussed how My Alias/Nickname was better than my birthname c:

After that I went back to the den

which was pool table being hogged by pairs pool somewhat had a partner than i just said CUSS it  -_-

ended upstairs which was Sims 3 and Super streeet fighter 4 lost my turn at that -3-
Almost whipped on Javi but I held back , gonna act like he don't know me and such psh
Lingstu reintroduced me xD
then they kvetched about me not being around o.o

Anthony was the first person I saw was good to talk to him

Asked Lingtsu about José :c he hasn't seen him around
before that he said he saw my profile lol
I asked him what was he doing on there
he said he was just browsing around

Funny him & anthony xD
I noticed Anthony's last name is the same as my son's first name

I miss that boy ):
The rain kinda ruined my plans
I felt insecure since my boobs got bigger
and they were gonna be like really out there lol


Saw Miguel he was shooting though, wanted to wait to say hello so I just watched him play
He ended up greeting me first while angling his shot and right after that he missed o-o
That's why I wanted to wait


I almost sat on Nick's lap x_x (would of been being bad)
Breaking out of old habits is hard lol
First things I thought when he said sit on my lap: 1. He might have a boner 2. He or I might enjoy that 3. NO NO NO STOP! BAD REN!
Yet to be honest, I was thinking about sitting on his lap or under him when He was there (before he asked me) simply because it's comfortable lol kekeke  (creature of habit) but then decided it would be inappropriate and not so friendly

can't wait to go to the mall next week <3

Went for a china run (china town aka chinese food)
Went to two different places they both didn't have what I want
S o I went to C Town instead singing Along with Royce

Corazon sin cara Heart without face but they translate it as a heart doesn't have a face

Which reminds me I needto get back to Pathmark, Bolthouse Farms was 5/10
I don't need that but protien is good for me!
That's probably how my boobs got biggeer lmao
Best protein I ever had <3

The plantanos were 4/2 I got 2/1 instead.
As well as Ginseng Ups, which are drinks with Ginseng they taste so good
Ginseng Up Iced Peach tea is my favorite one of the 9-12 flavors I believe.

they went up 10c were 89c before. In all the chinese food was pricey and didn't taste the same (that's what they said)
that's why I didn't want any instead I made myself a grilled cheese sandwich and an omelet (haven't had an omelet in years, YEM)

They might even been the reason why my boobs got biggers (i like that typo, I'll keep it ;D ) lol
What the freak with my body temperature
as soon as I got back I felt so weird

My leg is cold now T.T

and it's just the left front calf lol
my other parts are freaking hot, I might have caught a little cold today from the rain -3-
BUMMA

I was thinking about Wendy's all day it was good to sse Louis
There are new chicken sandwiches at Wendy's , I must try them XD

Then I found out they went and I was all AWW MAN -___- you didn't get me anything? lol
Burger king sucks compared to Wendy's lol.

Talked a lot about cars racism stupid people sexism film music pool life games and work today.
That wasn;t just with a few people, it was with just about everyone which was crazy.

I hope to go to Wendy's for that sandwich tomorrow T-T
(being a fatty fatty 2x4)

My stomach is so flat D: but i have a big butt and hopefully (soon!,¡pronto!) big boobs to match xD lol
For some reason I always wanted a body like that T,T Or small butt (no booty) big boobs no stomach >_>
just how i think at times lol, like i like certain things about mans xD

Today was a very good day besides the headaches x_x

Went home happy

The picture ^^^(all the way up there) I didn't feel in the mood for picture taking with people lol but hey I made it work yo ;D

Friendship

Ugh, no matter what you do, it's like a romantic relationship but sometimes you don't mind going back to it, I'm so tired :/ I shouldn't bother anyone anymore, if I'm hurt, I'll just let our relationship fade away naturally ):

I've been hurt with guys in a romantic way and I've been hurt in a non romantic way by guys and gals, I don't have to deal with this anymore, I have too much going on in my life to try to keep doing this, pain is not good for me, it takes a drain in more ways than one, adieu.

I don't like talking on the internet! \(TOT)/

I was feeling really heated then i went to check my messages from a long time and I felt like he totally overlooked me, even though he might have not meant to do so T_T
It hurt me deeply

HOW COULD YOU MAN AHHHHHH -crying like a little preschooler-


;~; oh well, I should let it be as it is distant  (needs to stop misreading things)
but that's the reason why I prefer talking on the phone or in person D:

T,T -wipes eyes-


Bad enough I read the rest of that crappy good book ;_;

Imma go be immature now Dx

Long Time No Talk: Keep In Touch Mi Amigo Countinued

I did get a reply so yah!
tease my friend a little bit XP
I want to get some new books, Spanish Japanese and Korean D:

True blood was wow, so tragic, glad that Debbie is FINALLY DEAD
GOO SOOK FOR GROWING SOME BALLS GIRL!

Speaking of which I need to see if Mister Mata has said anything back to me >_<


R.I.P. Jesus :'(
My Favorite (G)LBT couple T____T

He gave all his power and Marty killed him ):
IF only she could die second time ¬¬
lol

He loved Lafeyette so much T^T
That made me so sad

prettyfetish ♔ Ren D Ribbons

#Trueblood Quote of the Season. "Baby, You're a Median and I'm dead, I'll always be with you..." - Jesus

kinda like sad that Tara is dead :/ she was finallly acting ok again and she gets killed off.

Hey Rene ;D I was so happy to see his smexy self back on the screen lol

He warned what's her face, about Terry's crazy arse, I knew he was crazy as soon as he saw his old mate, he started looking scary ;_;

I give a big applaud to the cast and crew of this season you guys did an amazing job o-o

Eric boo, I feel your pain, she just shot you down like that lol, Had you hecka happy then I can't be with neither of yall

I hope she hooks up with L.C. I've been wanting to see that since last season <3

 My Favorite Cast Memebers of True Blood:

Kevin Alejandro as Jesus Velasquez
J.D. Mata as Tio Luca
Nathan Ellis as Lafayette Reynolds
Anna Paquin as Sookie Stackhouse
Lois Smith as Adele Stackhouse (Grams)
Alexander Skarsgard as Eric Northman ( awww)
Paola Turbay as Antonia ( felt sorry for her)
Ryan Kwaten as Jason Stackhouse
Joe Manganiello as Alcide Herveaux
Jim Parrack as Hoyt Fortenberry (bitchy though)
Carrie Preston as Arlene Fowler ( I finally liked her for once lol)
Deborah Ann Woll as Jessica Hamby ( You were bad but loved it lol)
Lauren Bowles as Holly Cleary  (Fabulous)
Dan Buran Marcus Bozeman (hey, i thought he was sexy yet bleh)
Chris Bauer as Andy Bellefleur (You Go Chris, you're looking better)


P.s. that sick pastor or whatever is back as a vamp! wth Dx he should of commited suicide lol  , jessica save jason ):

Long Time No Talk : Keep in Touch mi amigo

Wow, it's crazy how things changed, how time passed us by seems like facebook is the only way to keep in touch with my with my friends nowadays. It felt good to hear from Ramón I really missed him. I just hope to hear back from Adam,and all my other old running gang, my heart raced a bit but we're all good, nothing I can do and I'm happy for them, happy for them all. I just want them to be well.


Hoping that one day, I can be just as well as them or at least something close to it.

I believe last week, I made a new facebook to seperate the real from the fake, Out of 600 people only 80 were real to mean, that's less than 20% in case you haven't noticed, I hope to get back into storage to get my old college books as well, keeping in touch is so important.


I missed you, often when I say it, it's from the bottom of my heart. I say this to my friends, those of which I care deeply for, just sitting here now, with my friends Arooj and Kaushal.

Thinking of that time of the past back then.

All I can really say is wow. Vince and all the others, pain and hardships Texans, (i have to go wee, really bad and true blood is about to come on lol) ...

to be continued shortly after true blood ^^;....

My only edit to this is, that I couldn't log in quickly enough to post lol, so I ended up waiting WAYYYY after true blood yet, I still have another post to make :P

Nice :]

I like the new layout go google, I see you're stepping your game up ;D Time I do the same jajjaaja pero con mi español I have :]

I don't remember how to say that probably Yo tiene lol.

I have a lot of pictures to upload as well currently atm I'm hungry and browsing for domokun gloomy bear and pokemon stuff animals ;_;

3 Days of Trouble (Late Post)

started lightly then ended bleh
missed true blood three times -.-

The first day it was ok rain D:
then the night of it was heavy the power went out around 3am ;A;
and because I was scared , (of una araña) I didn't charge my phone or laptop -______-

So there was no studying done for me or nothing ;_;

Which in hand led me to reading all of the books i rented from the library or at least until I ran out of day light

The power was supposed to be back on by 9 ha! not at all -__-

But Saturday Sunday is a blur to me anyway rofl


xD power comes back on at 5am sunday wooo

but still trying to get into Hbo Go was a pain
Now I know what I need to get in to it but it's still useless to me :/

True Blood is the only show I knowingly Like from Hbo

Though I did catch the reruns on Monday <3 yahs!

At least something decides to work around here

Grrs

This weather is messing up a lot of things T.T darn warnings everywhere
on other note why do these kids keep approaching me Dx animals too ;_;
does anyone know why?

Three Days at the Toshokan

Yo, It's like heaven lol
Every single day I spent in the library <3

Never knew how many weirdos went to the library O.o

Finished 7 spanish books my abuela thinks I'm crazy lol
But it's muy divertido <3

mmm Antonio Bandres XD

Rented two movies XP one with Keanu Reeves and a Hindi flick :] by some famous indian director
I can now form a bit of sentences can't wait to go back tomorrow
just dread that I have to wake up so early -_-

I took out this book by a japanese author and it's translated in spanish lol
Titled After Dark :]

Rented 4 travel books 1 puerto rico 2 new york and i forgot the last one xD most likely el salvador
Well I'm off to study japanese ^.^

Ok, so this is what normally happens to me and I like fudge -______- hontou ni? (translation of fudge hontou ni: ¿ffff really?)I say I don't wanna go out  I just want to stay home and chill or studies.
Since I'm feeling as blue as a snow cone, antisocialable like a book, tired like a floor or just lazy as a blanket :P
For me those are some reasons just not to go out that day but somehow someway I am always dragged out of the house =3=
(They harasses me until I come out... FAFOMOS REAVE ME ARONE!)
So I went up to this cool little waterpark in Spartan, New Jersey. Just total water around there lol. I wouldn't want to live there just because I'm thinking about the flooding..

Ex.
Me: AHHH IT S FLOODING D:< Babe do we have flood insurance? o_O I hope we do, cuz I need to replace this crud asap... D:
Ye the houses were really nice lol. Only thing I liked about the place. So if you lived on the hill top you were coolin as long as the water goes down when it floods

The water at the park was dirty, fun but dirty there were showers to wash off ur feets too. Ok ok so I don't like lake water and I knew lakes were never clear blue lol
I don't care for greenie brownie waters.
The water slide was awesome as well as the kid's attraction called Papoose Island which really reminded me of Mario aka Yoshi's Island :]
Where I met a lot of guys who I was very shy to talk to I was like this >____> M_______M
I hurt my knee badly so it still hurts grr knees Dx
Brought a wiffle bat, had a sno-cone and an ice cream cone <3


The Ice cream cone was Vanilla, Wafer with Rainbow sprinkles :P
RAWRS kekeke.

After the park I ended up at a party in Central Jersey. I didn't want to be there ugh.. But In the end It turned out well. Didn't leave the party until midnight so I got home around 1ish

Mi bro was there and he told me what's wrong, you're always sad when I see you, You're a pretty girl, Pretty girls shouldn't be sad they should be happy and shooting boys lol..
Even though I knew what he meant with the shooting I took the literal meaning of an actually gun and told him well I don't have a gun yet so maybe that's why I'm still sad.
He chuckled then went off, to prepare for his show. He had a show to attend today, in Queens
I think the Heavy hitters might be there promoting too.

There were even more guys at the party WHAT THE HELL so happy when they left
talked some real talk artound 10~12
Talked about the white side of our families and how they have affected the children of oreo. Some of the kids can't accept that they are mixed and deny that side of themselves. How sad you only want to claim ur white side but it's clear ur mixed.  While it is sometimes the other way around for some kids, some appear extremly white when they were latino or just kissed by the sun and they would fight a person in a minute who calls them white.
Like a puerto rican with Blond hair and blue eyes or an Caucasian African American with black hair and green eyes. Yet the pigimentation and facial features makes them appear most white.
To me race is confusing , as for me and couple of friends agree that there is only one race , the human race and the sick world that we live in wants us to choose.
To me there is no such thing as a race labeled by color, maybe human should be a color yet it would be a rainbow of different skin tones, what a pretty color that would be. White and Black are the colors in my crayon box. White is the color of purity, as black is the color of Darkness.
In the bible and many other relgious scriptures race has been confused with the words used in the bible, then due to the history of the world, Where Nigger this Cracker that and all this other mess Created because one person was scared of another or that person wanted what that other person had.
Greed, Envy, Lust and a few other sins are what lead the human race to what it is now, You guys all know our dna is 99.9% alike and if you really think of the world. ALL OF YOU ARE NASTY YOU'RE SLEEPING WITH YOUR BROTHER OR SISTER.
In retrospect lol. When it comes to the human race it's just a bunch of genes that aren't so closely knit coming together.
@_@ Yet I think it is very important for everyone to read each religious book, Well start from the core.
Like if you're Christian, Jewish or Muslim. You should read the book meant for your religion first then move on to the others that relate to your religion. Ex. Bible, Torah and Quoran.
Then after you finish that read books from Buddhism, Hindism, Shintoism, Wiccan etc.
But read nothing that is new, because if it is anything from recent times it cannot truly reflect anything from beyond the 1900s
Also we already know what's happening now.
in the 1960s a lot of things changed for women and minorities. Yet there is still a lot of racism and sexism because of the same damn books and just how the world is in general.
If you ever read the bible completly (as I have) you would realize how sad and disgusting it is in the beginning yet in some points of the bible you see good things, you see a light and some sense in it. And that's just from the old testement alone.
You can read the whole bible in 365 or less, that all depends on your speed. Also yes I know it looks like I just said something hyprocritial but I am no fool to what has happened and what is of now. Somethings are just harder to swallow when it comes to living, that's why you can choose.
Choose to knowledge it
Choose to ignore it
Choose to embrace it
Choose to be it
Choose to love it
Choose to have it
Choose to fuck it
Choose to cry about it
Choose to die for it
Choose to burn it
Choose to forget it
Choose to remember it
But what ever you do
The Choice is yours to choose

Ren is out- I think I've said enough, now Imma work on burying this post in nonscene (/>3>)/ -runs away-

Been Absent

Man I haven't been on in three days and there's so much to say so Imma get started with the 18th lol here I go :)

Happy NOT!

Ok, so this is what normally happens to me and I like fudge -______- hontou ni? (translation of fudge hontou ni: ¿ffff really?)I say I don't wanna go out  I just want to stay home and chill or studies.
Since I'm feeling as blue as a snow cone, antisocialable like a book, tired like a floor or just lazy as a blanket :P
For me those are some reasons just not to go out that day but somehow someway I am always dragged out of the house =3=
(They harasses me until I come out... FAFOMOS REAVE ME ARONE!)
So I went up to this cool little waterpark in Spartan, New Jersey. Just total water around there lol. I wouldn't want to live there just because I'm thinking about the flooding..

Ex.
Me: AHHH IT S FLOODING D:< Babe do we have flood insurance? o_O I hope we do, cuz I need to replace this crud asap... D:
Ye the houses were really nice lol. Only thing I liked about the place. So if you lived on the hill top you were coolin as long as the water goes down when it floods

The water at the park was dirty, fun but dirty there were showers to wash off ur feets too. Ok ok so I don't like lake water and I knew lakes were never clear blue lol
I don't care for greenie brownie waters.
The water slide was awesome as well as the kid's attraction called Papoose Island which really reminded me of Mario aka Yoshi's Island :]
Where I met a lot of guys who I was very shy to talk to I was like this o--------o M_______M
I hurt my knee badly so it still hurts grr knees Dx
Brought a wiffle bat, had a sno-cone and an ice cream cone <3


The Ice cream cone was Vanilla, Wafer with Rainbow sprinkles :P
RAWRS kekeke.

After the park I ended up at a party in Central Jersey. I didn't want to be there ugh.. But In the end It turned out well. Didn't leave the party until midnight so I got home around 1ish

Mi bro was there and he told me what's wrong, you're always sad when I see you, You're a pretty girl, Pretty girls shouldn't be sad they should be happy and shooting boys lol..
Even though I knew what he meant with the shooting I took the literal meaning of an actually gun and told him well I don't have a gun yet so maybe that's why I'm still sad.
He chuckled then went off, to prepare for his show. He had a show to attend today, in Queens
I think the Heavy hitters might be there promoting too.

There were even more guys at the party WHAT THE HELL so happy when they left
talked some real talk artound 10~12
Talked about the white side of our families and how they have affected the children of oreo. Some of the kids can't accept that they are mixed and deny that side of themselves. How sad you only want to claim ur white side but it's clear ur mixed.  While it is sometimes the other way around for some kids, some appear extremly white when they were latino or just kissed by the sun and they would fight a person in a minute who calls them white.

Like a puerto rican with Blond hair and blue eyes or an Caucasian African American with black hair and green eyes. Yet the pigimentation and facial features makes them appear most white.
To me race is confusing , as for me and couple of friends agree that there is only one race , the human race and the sick world that we live in wants us to choose.

To me there is no such thing as a race labeled by color, maybe human should be a color yet it would be a rainbow of different skin tones, what a pretty color that would be. White and Black are the colors in my crayon box. White is the color of purity, as black is the color of Darkness.

In the bible and many other relgious scriptures race has been confused with the words used in the bible, then due to the history of the world, Where Nigger this Cracker that and all this other mess Created because one person was scared of another or that person wanted what that other person had.
Greed, Envy, Lust and a few other sins are what lead the human race to what it is now, You guys all know our dna is 99.9% alike and if you really think of the world. ALL OF YOU ARE NASTY YOU'RE SLEEPING WITH YOUR BROTHER OR SISTER.
In retrospect lol. When it comes to the human race it's just a bunch of genes that aren't so closely knit coming together.

@_@ Yet I think it is very important for everyone to read each religious book, Well start from the core.

Like if you're Christian, Jewish or Muslim. You should read the book meant for your religion first then move on to the others that relate to your religion. Ex. Bible, Torah and Quoran.
Then after you finish that read books from Buddhism, Hindism, Shintoism, Wiccan etc.
But read nothing that is new, because if it is anything from recent times it cannot truly reflect anything from beyond the 1900s

Also we already know what's happening now.
in the 1960s a lot of things changed for women and minorities. Yet there is still a lot of racism and sexism because of the same damn books and just how the world is in general.
If you ever read the bible completly (as I have) you would realize how sad and disgusting it is in the beginning yet in some points of the bible you see good things, you see a light and some sense in it. And that's just from the old testement alone.

You can read the whole bible in 365 or less, that all depends on your speed. Also yes I know it looks like I just said something hyprocritial but I am no fool to what has happened and what is of now. Somethings are just harder to swallow when it comes to living, that's why you can choose.


Choose to knowledge it
Choose to ignore it
Choose to embrace it
Choose to be it
Choose to love it
Choose to have it
Choose to fuck it
Choose to cry about it
Choose to die for it
Choose to burn it
Choose to forget it
Choose to remember it
But what ever you do
The Choice is yours to choose

Ren is out- I think I've said enough, now Imma work on burying this post in nonscene -runs away-

Racism at its finest

Well today I was feeling awesome but the moment this inspector stepped into the car with me, I had a feeling he would fail me just because.

I don't consider myself black, I consider myself to be a mutt because I refuse to represent one thing that I am for me it is all or nothing. However I do consider myself to be a minority.

Yet people wonder why White and Black are some of the most hated races. Personally speaking in america it is the worse.

He fails me just because and after that he was disrespectful to my instructor. We were both pissed and I do plan to sue after The 5th of September. I know my rights and I knew something was up.
I'm a good driver and if I was doing wrong my instructor would have corrected me during my lessons. As well as her boss on my last day.

There was a girl in front of me who was failed 3 times so it was her fourth time there. Also out of 20 people only one person passed. It should have been the other way around.

And yes as you guessed that person who passed was white. But heck what am I to expect from a white race country. Ye I know the president is Half and Half but that doesn't mean a thing when he can't make a decision unless his white counterparts agree on it.

The Public votes then the Union votes. Why the heck are we even voting if our say only makes up 25% of what will happen.

Well I'll stop with the polictics before I start talking about Krispie Creme. He has cut funding for college students like me and also thought it would be smart to cut power for street lamps on certain roads. So the roads are dark as caves! Coming across the bridge is so scary because without the headlights I wouldn't be able to see a damn thing! Freakin water is so close too, I'm just waiting to hear about a car accident that happens due to limited visiablity.

Then he had the nerve to attempt to defend himself saying Don't you ask me where my kids go to school it's none of your business! It is so our business and we know where they go. You have them in a damn private school! It's not right to treat your community/people/public like crap. I swear I wish there were more politicians who would first think and try to put themselves in the shoes of the lowest class. Then say hey if I was there I know I wouldn't like such and such.

Also cutting back on firemen and police don't help because that means more fire and more crime , dummies!

But anyway back to the road test, so my instructor tells me the girl she had taught before me drove just like me and she passed at another location and the people were different.
Never before was she bothered like that about something about the car and if the car was unsafe for driving she would have gotten fined for it along damn time ago!

Hectic on Numbero Dos NAZE?!

Ok so today I started my second day, woah, so many people were ignorant and arrogant just because I was in a that car.

It was ticking me off at first then I just realized nice weather brings out all the fools. Both of us (the instructor and me) agreed that yesterday was a better day.

They were trying to bully me to speed 10-20 miles higher than the speed limit, just because you ride my bummer it doesn't mean i will drive fast -blocks them from passing by me- >3> jajajja XD pay back beyatch

I pity the fool that drives against the law

I also realized she told me not to go fast around the corners for a reason, To always reduce speed because that's a speed trap and instant ticket.

I was so happy to be done driving :]
went to a few townships yah! 
Mía I really like that word lol

Well time for me to finish so I can go again in the morning xP

Oyasu!

Just started on day one :] It was bilingual lol

This was awesome^^
I was worried I was going to be late for my first day
because mi madre kept getting in my way -3-
Like cock blocking but it covers more teran lol.

So I made it on time thinking my instructor was late It was 230
not 2.00 >.>

I had a lovely time with my instructor as we conversed back and forth in spanish
Her complimenting me on my skills, Perfect on the first time ;D
Man I felt like I was playing pokémon lol.

Talked about College, Children, School, Relationships

Saying how many times she traveled, her Puerto Rican hubby <3 Myreow ~

She said well maybe when you get to college you'll get a Japanese Boyfriend who will stay
"Christi!" "Christi!"
I said well either that or a Puerto Rican one
She said Ooo You like PuertoRican Puerttorricano  , It's a good thing you speak spanish
I simply agreed
Finally I said what I wanted to for the past 20 mins
ww, on telling her about my ex, she said yeah, they're crazy muy loco mostly 90% of them always crazy.

She said I was a very smart girl and I'll go very far in life . As well as travels. I was always likeable because I was a fast learner



 Learned the road quickly I even drove home

Oh Yeah Bebé~

Before the downpour started

I ran inside, Plish Splash in my nikes GRRSS


Oh well after that it was Fuze PomAcai

Thanks Rae for the Fantastico Icons! I'll get you some more ;D

Coughing

For the past few days my friends have been able to keep me in good humor
As well as tears  and deep thought (deep serious conversation, you know like those adults like to do)


Sometimes I'm truly astonished by somethings.

My dreams are loco man. Friend turning into a wolf, I knew he was bad but not like that. His eyes going this way and that. Why are we at another dance? Why am I so caring? Buying him a Mango Carrot drink hah, I'm allergic. I'm somehow developing nectar for a person I would never be interested in.

Yet isn't that how it always starts?

Another Awesome Bilingual Expierence Spanish/Español - In the Library

Today after my mum's dentist appointment I went to the library <3

Woaha~ it was such a wonderful time Found two books to Purchase , both relating to latino culture ^_^

Latinos in English y La gallinita roja

Then I started with the Index, couldn't find the english one so I read the Spanish one Awesome :] , La Biblia, Film, Design, Art, Liberal and all <33 I hit the 200 before the 300, 400 and 700s

Grabbed One Religious book, a bunch of arichectural books and a taichi book

The Book of Angels
The Garden Design Book
Small House / Big Style
Outdoor Rooms
What is Japanese Architecture?
Andrea Palladio
Total Tai Chi

After that I went to the computer starting a final search in hope to find something Spanish to fuel my linguistic abilities. So I end up in the Juvenile section, where there's tons of books for bilingualism, well since the care has so many Latino/Hispanic.

I never made it to the Audio Visual Section ): Which I needed to go to lol

I got some help from the librarian putting books down there She helped me find the Spanish books Yet I was still lost My book was in a completely different section lol

She complimented me on my learning abilities Then gave me some encouragement by giving me this sweet Mead College Ruled Notebook Which she told me to write my Spanish words in, I was thinking about getting one too. I've decided to write line by line translating what I read by myself. If I didn't know about the personal a I would be lost lol.

The Book I found thinking it was cool was

Estrellita En La Ciudad Grande ~ Estrellita in the Big City

Perfect for me because it's not straight Spanish (tomorrow I'll make a post on a book similar to it that I purchased a month ago)


I feel Bilingualism is the way to go when it comes to language learning.

This book has to be 2nd~3rd grade level

Now the book I came down there for was

How do I feel? ¿Cómo me siento?

I didn't think it would be this small but it was lol

I have to say it's a kindergarten level.


After coming back from the library I was complimented on my academics
Since I keep my head in my books instead of being like these other 18-19 year old skanks most common in my area.

However my best friends have always been latino/hispanic or asian lol


Everytime I mention my major or my interests in language, it has lead me into a great deep conversation about doing right..

Gracias Dios, You are showing me the right path :)

What a Day Bilingual Experience - Spanish/Español - Re-Up

This is a re-posting of yesterday's experience but with more detail ....


Today I asked a mother of 3 children if she was raising her children to be Bilingual
I was hesitant at first since I don't like to talk to strangers
Stranger Danger lmfao. Ah, school keke.

She told me that her family speaks all spanish and her husband's family speaks all english.
it's a bit tricky but the youngest is learning now, he knows how to speak a few words in Spanish
He was so adorable
If he hadn't dropped his bottle by my foot I would have never finally mustered up that bit of courage to ask her that question at the forefront of my mind.

At first I wanted to ask the father since he kept talking to me
(He threatened me because of my dental health... I haven't been to the dentist since I was 14! lol )

He was shy to say the words his mother had told him to speak >.< Thinking while watching him made me say to myself,

Hey.. I should be speaking Spanish to them directly not engrish ajajjaja.

So I start thinking about Agua and the Tabel which I can only remember in Japanese -____- KUSO! Like that's gonna help me lol


So what I came up with in my head was

Mi Agua es Muy Calliete My water is very hot
Which it was , Couldn't say my water is on the table

So she's encouraging her son to still say to me Agua
Bebe(su) Mamá : Agua , say agua

Still in my head I'm going Su Agua, Mi Agua.
He had to be no older that 1 or 2 <3

So precious

I was really happy to talk about Spanish with her, this was the first time I ever spoken by choice about languages and of myself. In the back of my mind I would love to Marry a man from a different country who was raised properly by his mother , had the right surroundings , the mindset and was a man of his own words not one to do what the crowd say. Would be so happy to finally meet a man of such great stature. Yes world I have aspirations of love as well. Cursive hormones.


Gracias <3

That time of the year

     Last night more likely midnight I was noticing how hard it was for me to get off facebook, yet there are times when I have trouble getting off so I can sleep because I'm so hot (popular) popularity is always an up and down with me but wooh when it is lol. Facebook is the New Myspace :P

What a Day Bilingual Experience

Today I asked a mother of 3 children if she was raising her children to be Bilingual
I was hesitant at first since I don't like to talk to strangers
Stranger Danger lmfao. Ah, school keke.

She told me that her family speaks all spanish and her husband's family speaks all english.
it's a bit tricky but the youngest is learning now, he knows how to speak a few words in Spanish
I knew Agua was one of them
She tried to get him to say agua for mi agua was on the table lol.
Mi agua es muy callite

Teaching english and spanish at the same time mostly english
Now I'll know how to raise my very own

Wrote this around 911pm the other day lol
boy how sidetracked was I?

On Once More

I'm happy to be on here agian, as I await for my appointment time.
Cleaning the house and attempting to change the address on my id
what a bummer
It doesn't work :/
I guess I'll have to do this in person.

Watched True Blood again last night
What the hell why is Tara still alive?
Atm I'm not pleased with her actions.
Killing and Killing solves nothing but heck you trying talking some sense into creatures.

Yah! Eric though he's adorable this season, sucks thinking about what Sookie's Grandmother said.

Antionia oo she's so dangerous
I'm wondering what the writers have planned to bring her down.
I know Lafayette and Tio Luca have a lot to do with it.
Jesus has too much fear and what was his Abuelo trying to turn him into?
A Brujo Guardian/Spirit or a Median?

Vacation in Florida

Muy muy
oh you know I want to say something in spanish so bad lol
Yet I don't remember enough
I want to get me a little gekko <3

I caught the bouquet at the wedding
So happy I did and shocked.
didn't think I would get it.
I didn't fight for it, it landed right in my hands
Just wow, had a lot of drink too

Happy to have new family ^_^
So much fun
I'm so tired ;_;
Finished watching the latest episode of True Blood
The actor playing Tio Luca (J.D. Mata) caught my eye.
Good thing he did I see he has a lot of interests that I have so that's cool.
Hopefully I keep up to date with his activities

Nighty night <3
sorry I took forever to come back , yet I have been thinking about posting all week
P.S. I went to Miami beach.

Familia in CT

On Junio 20th We hopped in the car and
went off to connecticut with 10 other family members for a day of fun.
Well a full day.
I had some much fun being there
loved the music the jokes and everything.

As soon as we woke up in the car
we went to the park
the hoops were crowded
So I ended up playing on the playground
and swinging
I went so high so I ended up saying wth yo
and making myself sick
Felt like I was at a damn amusement park

(Is paying now for strectching myself out at the park)
Ouchies


Didn't drink but there was plenty to drink

DDDDUUUUUUDDEEE
They had throw back MD and AN Sierra Mist <3
They were good I split both of them with my dad

Played Trash and won
I thought for sure I was going to lose
I was stuck at 10 after 6 rounds then I was stuck at three for a bit won the 19th round like I wanted to I tapped twice and one those games.
Found it to be funny, didn't know it would actually work
during most of the taps I kept getting a damn 3 when I needed a 2 lol

So many jokes about 1987

For once I felt comfortable with people's intimacy normally it would gross me yet, basically figured I would have to get used to that myself. Since sooner or later I'll be doing the same kekeke

Mahogany waited for until we were ready to leave to go potty
when she came out
Terrell kept nodding his head slowly at her saying
good job over and over lol
then he said don't look at me when she turned to look at him and kept on repeating good job
XDDDDDD

so wrong back and forth

lmao joke of the evening You didn't even let it heal.

Facebook Games

Yoooooo
Those things are addicting
all though I'm just going to stick with playing Farmville XD

AWESOME XD

I had a fabulous day today :3

I am Blogger

I am blogger blogger
I blog
for I am blogger blogger
in case you haven't noticed o_O
that was so mojo jojo from powerpuff girls lol

I'm so tired :(

Day Ten: One confession

Day Ten: One confession

One - I crave something I never had, rls (Real Lifestyle)

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

One - >w< This describes my life right now because there's so much going on that I'm excited about :P Two - <3 This describes my life because I'm loving it right now lol,(the attenton from the guy too kekeke) >w< (whoops used it again)


[NOOOOOOOO I FORGOT ALL ABOUT YESTERDAT!!!! I didn't even get on T_____T the internet too. Yesterday was my friend's birthday XP He's 21 now o.O or 22 jajaj. Feliz Cumpleanos to himz (errorz) I'll post day 10 later on today (a minute before midnight I suppose kekeke]

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

One - Your hands and voice

Two - Your eyes and lips

Three - The amount of respect you show for yourself, for your friends, for the people and most of all for me.


[I didn't forget and I'm just on time :] ]

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

One - Lying

Two - Stupidity

Three - Saying you're horny , that's so gay lol.

Four - Lying about your dick or talking about your sex life. NGAF



[Phew almost didn't make it lol, I know I keep forgetting. tomorrow I will do it first thing! <3 promise on that :D ]

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

One - Friends

Two - Family

Three - My lover/Boyfriend

Four - God

Five - Bestie


[I did it again this is a hard one cuz I don't really think about things like that]

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.


One - I wish I never cheated

Two - I wish I never lied

Three - I wish I never changed schools

Four - I wish I never tried to be normal

Five - I wish I never became depressed

Six - I wish I never stopped being in all those damn activities!


[Phew I almost didn't make it, I'm becoming a tad forgetful, so hungry now, about to paint my nails too.]

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.


One - Sex/Love/Relationships

Two - College/My Future

Three - BF

Four - Ereku

Five - Life

Six - Choices

Seven - The Past


[NOOOOOO GRRRS I took a nap and everything T_T I'll just be double posting today but in reality the day ain't ova until i'm knocked out XD lmao ]

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

One - Be Honest with me, never lie.

Two - Be opened

Three - Love me for my personailty, who I am on the inside

Four - Accept Me and I'll Accept You.

Five - Be yourself, never pretend to be something you're not to get to me.

Six - Be a Gentlemen, A REAL ONE.

Seven - Know your boundaries.

Eight - Have a good taste in many things and be an open-minded well rounded cultural person~

[Phew, almost didn't make it, I forgot today, thanks to my friend I remembered I had to blog lol.]

Day Two - Ten Days Challenge

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.


One - I'm heartless

Two - I'm a bad actor

Three - There's something wrong with me

Four - I'm disappointed with myself which often leads to disgust and hate towards myself

Five - I wish to improve but I often doubt my ablities to succeed or do anything right.

Six - There's a pain that is within me yet I don't know how to describe it or exactly what it is.

Seven - I want to know more about the heritage that runs through me.

Eight - I am my worst enemy

Nine - I'm a rockstar who doesn't control themselves yet in the end I just don't give a chuck.


[I realized, I can make nice things sound mean, and that's really effed up y'know.]

Day One - Ten Days Challenge

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.


One - I hate you, there are things about you which I just can't stand, they sicken me, just isn't right man.

Two - I'm honestly sorry, I don't care if you believe me or not, it doesn't matter.

Three - I don't want to ever see you again, I wipe you from my existence

Four - Thank you, you were the best and worst thing to happen to me.

Five - I'm not perfect and that what drives me insane. Trying to fit my own expectations

Six - I'm cruel, cold, heartless, ruthless, sick and just down right a snake. Crazy and bitchy are in my genes, but I don't want to be mizerable with only half of what I deserve. I want to change, I want help.

Seven - I guess it wasn't meant to be, glad it's over. Now I can chill n just do me.

Eight - Psh, Only messin with ya dumbazz, I lied to you, but I wanted to be entertained, didn't get it so I regret a bit.

Nine - Couldn't keep the promise I made to you. I blame myself but I can surely blame another. It takes more than one, yet still I could of said no and decided to still press on.

Ten - It burns, wish there was something to stop it y'know, I still feel that I'm not enough, I'm disappointed with myself. I want a high level yet, I'm so low. I'm feeling worthless.


[Wish I had a spell check or somethings, somethings are better left unsaid?]

I'm going to take the challenge

Starting tomorrow.
You know this might actually make me start posting more lol


Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession

Life

Well my life has been quite crazy
Yep, in the heck, I don't even know when was the last time I posted here
(Pretty sure it was marchish or last year...)
I've been through a couple of boyfriends.
No nothing happened, I'm not that type of girl.
As usual talking doesn't work

I haven 't fallen in love
I realize what I had for goat was dirty and unhealthy
It wasn't love it wasn't even like
it was curiousity with a mixture of swirling dislike
I wanted to kick his ass
still wanna do it too.

Though I realized I made myself look like a fool
Desperate, stalkerish , perssisent and demanding
I can't change that about myself.
When I want something from someone
I want it now, not later
So I continue to press until I get it.

It was weird and all
Even when I didn't want to see him
I did.

In a few I'll call Ricardo :c
I miss him, would like to hang out, but there's no gurantee
We will ever see one another again.
Life goes on
People change
People move

My fear is always change.
I don't want to change too much
Yet I don't want to not change not enough.
Confusing right?

Signing off , Ren Dizzle

GRRS

>_< so much going on
but no excuses
there's time for everything just gotta make it :c
or find it ;A;

x_x

Haven't been on here in a minute
but good news :D
Started up school again
passed my first exam XP
100 yo!

Ahhh

Life's been real good
I decided to start networking
I like what I hear and see
My tummy hurts a bit but I'll live

-Ren


p.s. I haven't been practicing

:P
楽しいだ。

Hi Hi

I'm back lol