Hello All!

I know i know it's been such a long time, i'm a forgetful person. I've been trying to get some things in my life straight. I got a fiance. I quit my job due to my manager being sexist :/ (wack yo). my cousin died. that was big i guess. I'm back in school WOOO! See just as much as I've been away :D good things have happened. I've been so stressed out T___T I MADE KOREAN FRIENDS :D went to more weddings. Bouquets at the tip of my fingers. I felt silly for even standing up there. Yes WEDDINGS. of course after I got the bf ._. I got a lot to update on. I feel more woman now. I think my heart exists. Don't think we won't be hearing from me

Well let me get right to the point. I apologize for such a long absence and it's funny that there has to be a serious storm brewing for me to post xD HURRICANE SANDY :P Today I felt my most motivated after all this bull. I'm finally standing up and on my feet again. I'm working out and watching the weather channel. I have been away since 3:50pm yesterday o_o I am not tired^^

I'm going to study and take better care of myself! Once and for all


OWW CARPAL TUNNEL DX

I hear the winds a brewin >.O
Time for me to finish working out and crud ;n; that's the problem with stuff it's boring or too easy at times. T____T


-Ren Montez <3

Miguel - Girls Like You

FINALLY!
I was wondering for quiet some time now, hmm I wonder if Miguel is going to have a video for this one.

Months later my wish is finally granted :D

Sad part is the video does not relate at all to the song :/

but it's a good low budget video
still would of loved to have some real symbolics

I loved the heart shapped lolli 
now I  want one lol

I also love his new hairstyle. Very cute on Miguel, way better than the last one
Guess who the girl is in the video XD

-Ren Montez <3

Did You ever feel like ******??

I know everyone has that time in their life where they feel why do I ever bother or try.

Wether it's caused by love, school, money or social it happens to the best of us unfortanately but hey, if we can make it through that tough time, it only makes us stronger beings.

I watched koishite akuma episode two. Some japanese drama I said i didn't care too much for, that episode was surprisingly pretty good.
The message was effed up though. They talked about the difference between a human life >> shiseikan <<< and a vampire's life.

We strive to live our fullest even knowing that in the end we will die.

So true, we attempt to live all the life we can before we are more, and that's exactly how we should live.
Pushing limits, going beyond the boundaries, excelling, spreading our wings, living everyday like it was our last.

In the end what will you believe? What will be your mark on this earth? Make it big make it honorable.
Just live your life and hold your head up, things are crappy now but remember, there's a tomorrow so there for there can be a better day ^_^;

-Ren Montez <3 p="">

Lover I Don't Have to Love - Bright Eyes

This song is crazy, I love the melody. I would listen to this without the lyrics if I could. I normally listen to this song when I'm feeling down and I feel that love is too damn pointless.
(Pardon if you don't like my music reviews but they do relate to my life, since I have some opinion on it :] )

The lyrics are deep and whatever. >>>
Here are a few lyrics from the song that made me say wow:
I want a lover I don't have to love I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk, hey where's the kid with the chemicals....
I got a hundred and I can't seem to get far...

I got the money if you got the time he said it feels good and I'll give it a try ....
and my mind went dark...
I need some meaning I can memorize, The gotta have or seems to slip my mind...
You are such pretty words, but love's no story book, love's an excuse to get hurt and to hurt. Do you like to hurt? I do I do, then hurt me, then hurt me.

Well if I have any readers out there, I would love to hear your opinions every once in awhile ^^; (starting to feel as if I'm sounding desperate for a reply)

-Ren Montez <3

On Once More

I'm happy to be on here agian, as I await for my appointment time.
Cleaning the house and attempting to change the address on my id
what a bummer
It doesn't work :/
I guess I'll have to do this in person.

Watched True Blood again last night
What the hell why is Tara still alive?
Atm I'm not pleased with her actions.
Killing and Killing solves nothing but heck you trying talking some sense into creatures.

Yah! Eric though he's adorable this season, sucks thinking about what Sookie's Grandmother said.

Antionia oo she's so dangerous
I'm wondering what the writers have planned to bring her down.
I know Lafayette and Tio Luca have a lot to do with it.
Jesus has too much fear and what was his Abuelo trying to turn him into?
A Brujo Guardian/Spirit or a Median?

Life

Well my life has been quite crazy
Yep, in the heck, I don't even know when was the last time I posted here
(Pretty sure it was marchish or last year...)
I've been through a couple of boyfriends.
No nothing happened, I'm not that type of girl.
As usual talking doesn't work

I haven 't fallen in love
I realize what I had for goat was dirty and unhealthy
It wasn't love it wasn't even like
it was curiousity with a mixture of swirling dislike
I wanted to kick his ass
still wanna do it too.

Though I realized I made myself look like a fool
Desperate, stalkerish , perssisent and demanding
I can't change that about myself.
When I want something from someone
I want it now, not later
So I continue to press until I get it.

It was weird and all
Even when I didn't want to see him
I did.

In a few I'll call Ricardo :c
I miss him, would like to hang out, but there's no gurantee
We will ever see one another again.
Life goes on
People change
People move

My fear is always change.
I don't want to change too much
Yet I don't want to not change not enough.
Confusing right?

Signing off , Ren Dizzle