Day One - Ten Days Challenge

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.


One - I hate you, there are things about you which I just can't stand, they sicken me, just isn't right man.

Two - I'm honestly sorry, I don't care if you believe me or not, it doesn't matter.

Three - I don't want to ever see you again, I wipe you from my existence

Four - Thank you, you were the best and worst thing to happen to me.

Five - I'm not perfect and that what drives me insane. Trying to fit my own expectations

Six - I'm cruel, cold, heartless, ruthless, sick and just down right a snake. Crazy and bitchy are in my genes, but I don't want to be mizerable with only half of what I deserve. I want to change, I want help.

Seven - I guess it wasn't meant to be, glad it's over. Now I can chill n just do me.

Eight - Psh, Only messin with ya dumbazz, I lied to you, but I wanted to be entertained, didn't get it so I regret a bit.

Nine - Couldn't keep the promise I made to you. I blame myself but I can surely blame another. It takes more than one, yet still I could of said no and decided to still press on.

Ten - It burns, wish there was something to stop it y'know, I still feel that I'm not enough, I'm disappointed with myself. I want a high level yet, I'm so low. I'm feeling worthless.


[Wish I had a spell check or somethings, somethings are better left unsaid?]

I'm going to take the challenge

Starting tomorrow.
You know this might actually make me start posting more lol


Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession

Life

Well my life has been quite crazy
Yep, in the heck, I don't even know when was the last time I posted here
(Pretty sure it was marchish or last year...)
I've been through a couple of boyfriends.
No nothing happened, I'm not that type of girl.
As usual talking doesn't work

I haven 't fallen in love
I realize what I had for goat was dirty and unhealthy
It wasn't love it wasn't even like
it was curiousity with a mixture of swirling dislike
I wanted to kick his ass
still wanna do it too.

Though I realized I made myself look like a fool
Desperate, stalkerish , perssisent and demanding
I can't change that about myself.
When I want something from someone
I want it now, not later
So I continue to press until I get it.

It was weird and all
Even when I didn't want to see him
I did.

In a few I'll call Ricardo :c
I miss him, would like to hang out, but there's no gurantee
We will ever see one another again.
Life goes on
People change
People move

My fear is always change.
I don't want to change too much
Yet I don't want to not change not enough.
Confusing right?

Signing off , Ren Dizzle